Currently Listening Look Around By Anthony Rapp Living Alive see related

So, like I was saying, I'm done with all the teen drama. I don't live for anyone's approval.

I'm happy with who I am. I have my flaws, but I love myself. I have my own style and I have friends I can count on. I hope that all of you can be comfortable with who you are too.

I know I havn't always made the best decisions or been the best person, but I am going on with my life. I have not given up on who I wish to be. I'm just getting there my own way.

Currently Listening Follow My Ass By Ant see related

In about 49 days, I will become twenty. Too old to bother with all of the teenage drama bullshit anymore. I'm not who I used to be in a way. I'm more confident, proud, not as naive. Buy, I'm still me. I'm still the kid who started singing about chocolate milk in the lunch line. I still pour my heart out when I write. I havn't acted sinse October. No singing, which now I only do in front of myself. Nobody else wants to hear it. I don't care if they do or not anymore. I'm happy. I'm almost done with this semester, which was crappy. I love my friends whom I can count on. I may be leaving for a while. Don't worry, I'm fine.

You only have one "twenties" and I'm going to enjoy mine. I may not make the best decisions, but they are mine to make. I'm okay.

Currently Watching Love Valour Compassion see related

Last Thursday I went to the Blue October concert. It was great. They are an amazing band. They played 'Calling You' second which made me glad. I love that song. I think they're amazing because they sing about how I feel/felt.

I'm worried about my brother Jeremy.  He's having some problems with people right now and I'm hoping everything works out well soon. We've gotten closer recently.

I dropped a class. Twas English; freshman comp 2. I didn't have the time for it. Nor the energy to focus on it.  I'm not in any forum to really be artistic. I'm not in the movie or any shows. It feels weird to be here right now. I havn't talked to my old gang in a whle. I hope they're okay. I am.

I don't know that I have anything to say to anyone. I'm happy. I think....yes, I'm happy. I don't owe anyone anything. I've made good friends. I only have about one month left of this semester and then I plan on leaving for a little while. I'm gonna get my hair done and travel.

I don't know of anything to do right now othar than watch some movies I have, play Princess Maker, and wait for somebody to call me that I want to talk to.  Later...

Currently Listening Stars: The Best of the Cranberries, 1992-2002 By Cranberries Salvation see related

Musings

Cigarettes are lies we tell ourselves mean maturity and independence, when we only use them when we need someone elce.

When I need to know what a rebel is, I ask Plato.

Classic movies make the best lovers.

School is not for everyone, don't try to peg people who don't fit into your mold.

People can say whatever they please about you, but its not true unless you let it be.

Me in Blue Shirt Glory

So, I'm feeling better I think. I slept a lot yesterday and I'm doing some laundry before I have to go to class. I'm tired of being ashamed of who I am. I don't think I should be. I am a good person. You know, when I was a kid, teachers tried to make me feel bad because I was left handed.  Seriously. It didn't work. Its one of the things I pride myself on. I'm going to try to take some business classes and find a full-time office job so that I can support myself. I might go to Barnes & Noble today. I love that store.  I'm also, so far, a part of three weddings in July. Now, lets take another look at me.

 Yes, thank you. I am loved.